Once again, it has been it has been far too long. I can honestly report that it is not because I’ve had nothing to say, just no time/energy to say it! Just to catch every one up: Rudy, my Super Dooper Trooper is doing Wonderfully! He gave me another scare, and only one week ago I thought I was going to lose him. Then, on Wednesday, 9/10, he had a “perfect” glucose level of 133! The vet and I agreed that we are going to wait one month before testing him again. He’s been through enough tests and it’s time to just let him be for now. Additionally, I have fallen twice in the past two weeks, which has taken a toll on my body. This may be the stress of everything causing a lack of coordination or just too much going on. Either way it is taking a toll on my body!
Needless to say, dealing with this emotional roller coaster has left me fairly exhausted all the time. I am still keeping up with the things I normally do, I am just not doing them at the same level. I do think in the past day or two, I am starting to return to “normal,” whatever that is! At least, I am feeling like I want to do something again! I have begun to “study” writing, as I believe that to do something well, one must keep up on the skills of doing it. In my case that means learning AND doing! I have done that with just about everything I have ever done in my life and it has worked out well for me. I just have to watch out for the tendency to get caught up in the learning and never get to the doing part! Especially now that the doing is writing, which is very scary for me. As I write those words, it seems very ironic that writing would be scarier than therapy! After all, therapy is, if done incorrectly, a far more dangerous enterprise. I mean, if I suck at writing, it is not detrimental to anyone’s life. (Except maybe my ego, but not my life.) Yet if I sucked at therapy, I could really screw someone’s life up. And I was not scared to walk into my office every day and see folks for therapy, in fact I enjoyed it. So when I think of it that way, writing should be easy, right? I think I will continue learning…
On that note, I just started reading a new book, entitled “Trying Not To Try” by Edward Slingerland. It is based on the Chinese Philosophy of wu-wei, which is described as “an effortless way to go through life with spontaneity.” It allegedly disputes all the thoughts about planning, reasoning and effort being needed for a happy life. I am interested to find out more about the philosophy, especially since it fits into my theme of this year: “Just Be.” Also, maybe it will help me be able to put words on paper; just write and stop trying so hard to make it perfect and planned out. Which, of course, will probably go against everything I am learning about outlines, research and index cards! That is what makes learning so much fun though…reading about all the different ways of doing things and putting them together to make the way that works for me!
After all, once I figure it out, I could write a book about it!