“Happiness comes from within.” We hear that all the time, that nothing and no one can make us happy. And it, for the most part, it is true. Yet, when a major event occurs and changes your circumstances, it’s hard to believe it!
Yesterday that happened for me. The major event that I was so very stressed and worried about happened, see: Sometimes You Just have to Admit it Sucks. It turned out better than I could have hoped! And it relieved the stress and the tension that has been enveloping my life for the past two and a half years. I had no idea that I had been living like that! But the fact that I slept for nine hours at one time has shown me that I have. That and the black cloud is not so dark today.
So does happiness come from within? I don’t really know, maybe. Maybe the relief of stress and tension and fear has allowed me to feel some of the happiness that is innately in my heart. Maybe the pain I feel everyday has been validated by those who don’t really have a clue what it is like to live my life. Maybe the black cloud lifting has allowed me to truly feel the love and support I have from all of my friends.
All I know right now is that whatever it is I will take it!
And I will hold onto it for as long as I possibly can!